Mother's and Father's Wish to Their Children

To my dear child:

On the day when you see me old, weak and weary, have patience and try to understand me. 

If I get dirty when eating, If I can not dress on my own, please bear with me and remember the times I spent feeding you and dressing you up.

If, when I speak to you, I repeat the same things over and over again, do not interrupt me. Listen to me. When you were small, I had to read to you the same story, a thousand and one times until you went to sleep.

When I do not want to have a shower, neither shame nor scold me. Remember when I had to chase you with your thousand excuses to get you to the shower?

When you see my ignorance of new technologies, help me navigate my way through those world wide webs. I taught you how to do so many things, to eat the right foods, to dress appropriately, to fight for your rights.

When at some moment I lose the memory or the thread of our conversation, let me have the necessary time to remember. And if I can not, do not become nervous, as the most important thing is not our conversation, but surely to be with you and to have you listening to me.

If ever I do not feel like eating, do not force me. I know well when I need to and when not to eat.

When my tired legs give way and do not allow me to walk without a cane, lend me your hand. The same way I did when you tried your first faltering steps.

And when someday I say to you, that I do not want to live any more, that I want to die, do not get angry. Some day you will understand. Try to understand that my age is not just lived but survived. 

Some day you will realize that, despite my mistakes, I always wanted the best for you and I tried to prepare the way for you. You must not feel sad, angry nor ashamed for having me near you.

Instead, try to understand me and help me like I did when you were young. Help me to walk. Help me to live the rest of my life with love and dignity. I will pay you with a smile and by the immense love I have always had for you in my heart.

I love you child.

Mom/Dad

Author : Unknown

"Dear Allah, forgive all my sins and my parent's and please loved them with blessed as they have loved and blessed me since I was a child. Amin ya Rabbal A'lamin."

* May Allah swt. give us all the strengths to take good care of our parents with all of our heart untill the end. InsyaAllah.

Farewell Dears

Ku Nur Izzati Ku Ahmad Nasir

Shafira Azhari

Nuralina Maarof

Girls,

We've been learning the same course for 3 years together, used to be so closed, but 

sometimes we used to be apart just doing own things. 

Because they used to help me a lot, I felt like a useless person. So I've put my distance from 

them, trying to be more independent on my own. 

I'm sorry if I've done it wrong. Sometimes I thought we're just done being friends. But trust 

me, I always thought you girls are.

But, seems like I can't believe it now that I'm seeing you girls sleeping by my side, on my 

place :D

One hugging bears like a child, one just calmly closing eyes, but one still struggling editting thesis, fighting! haha. 

They are beautiful :)

On the last day being together in UKM. Never thought that they still treat me as a good friend, like still want to do everything together.

Because we never done this before, trust me it's beautiful. Even just for a moment now, let me treasure it.

I am sorry and thank you, girls. 

(2010-2013)

Home Alone, Room Alone.

So here I am.

With one cup of full cream milk, two burgers, and three tomatoes to be eat.

I sit alone.

In a room. In a house.

Companied by the sounds of an old fan and the sound of the PC operating.

By living in college, I used to eat all by myself. 

Even being in a home, I still have to eat by myself.

It's okay.

Being like this seems like a routine for me anyway.

If somebody saw me eating out alone in a cafe,

They would ask, "don't you have friend to eat together"?

There's nothing I could say but smiling.

Because,

It's not that I don't have friends to eat together.

It's not that I don't have family to eat with.

Also,

It's not that I don't want to,

It's just this is how I used to.

Suddenly, 

I heared a "meoww" sound from a corner. 

Approaching me. 

Made me realized that I am not that alone :)

While Others Are

This is one of the Quotes

 that you can hold on to be a better person 

by William Arthur Ward.

Complete, isn't it?

wHOLIburdenDAYS of Break

Today is the last day for the mid-semester of 2012-2013 session in UKM.

We are going to have a week of "wHOLIburdenDAYS" which means a whole full of burden holidays. 

흐 흐 흐 ..

I should not take it as 'burden' actually, because its the job, the job of being a student.

But I feel like it is. I am sorry.

Usually, some students would think that the mid-semester break is the time have some rest,

to have some gap to start anew with something. 

They would spend all the holidays with something that they really wanted to do,

with someone that they really want to be with.

Because I used to be one of the students I knew the feeling of real holidays and I love it.

Since now I am in the last year of my studies, I guess the feeling of having holidays like that is a no no. I am sure for those who are in the same boat as me would feel like that too. For us, this is the one of the most crucial part of the life.

Having a list of lots assignments to do.

Revising for mid-semester examinations is a must.

Plus,

Analyzing the works of the THESIS which takes a lot of credits in the courses list is the most critical one, because this is an individually project that we have to publish, as the course is one of the compulsory majors we need to score to graduate with good pointer. 

It takes a lot more of effort than before because you have to stand a lot more on your own.

Now, my holidays are full of thought of it.

Nevertheless, its better than not having 'holidays' at all. That at least I have some more space to rearrange everything that messed.

Alhamdulillah, thankfully to Allah for everything. 

May Allah ease everything for us.

InsyaALLAH.

Strength

[Remembrance of those hard times]

Yours left, I mean ours left. He was long gone even by the times we laughed together.

Mines left too, of course, when he want to.

I did not tell, but I guess you saw in me.

You saw me weak..

During those times, there's no other strength I have but you, Mother.
I may feel alone somehow, but let all the good memories company me.
I may look weak sometimes, but inside I want to have those strengths like yours.
I might be not perfect, but all I want to do is the best for all.

Yes, somehow I have been falling and giving up.
But I will never forget to crawl back slowly, then walk and run again.

You do not tell but I know, I see it.
I have to be your strength too.

For you Mother, and I hope it can be for everyone too.
I LOVE YOU.