Home Alone, Room Alone.

So here I am.

With one cup of full cream milk, two burgers, and three tomatoes to be eat.

I sit alone.

In a room. In a house.

Companied by the sounds of an old fan and the sound of the PC operating.

By living in college, I used to eat all by myself. 

Even being in a home, I still have to eat by myself.

It's okay.

Being like this seems like a routine for me anyway.

If somebody saw me eating out alone in a cafe,

They would ask, "don't you have friend to eat together"?

There's nothing I could say but smiling.

Because,

It's not that I don't have friends to eat together.

It's not that I don't have family to eat with.

Also,

It's not that I don't want to,

It's just this is how I used to.

Suddenly, 

I heared a "meoww" sound from a corner. 

Approaching me. 

Made me realized that I am not that alone :)

While Others Are

This is one of the Quotes

 that you can hold on to be a better person 

by William Arthur Ward.

Complete, isn't it?

wHOLIburdenDAYS of Break

Today is the last day for the mid-semester of 2012-2013 session in UKM.

We are going to have a week of "wHOLIburdenDAYS" which means a whole full of burden holidays. 

흐 흐 흐 ..

I should not take it as 'burden' actually, because its the job, the job of being a student.

But I feel like it is. I am sorry.

Usually, some students would think that the mid-semester break is the time have some rest,

to have some gap to start anew with something. 

They would spend all the holidays with something that they really wanted to do,

with someone that they really want to be with.

Because I used to be one of the students I knew the feeling of real holidays and I love it.

Since now I am in the last year of my studies, I guess the feeling of having holidays like that is a no no. I am sure for those who are in the same boat as me would feel like that too. For us, this is the one of the most crucial part of the life.

Having a list of lots assignments to do.

Revising for mid-semester examinations is a must.

Plus,

Analyzing the works of the THESIS which takes a lot of credits in the courses list is the most critical one, because this is an individually project that we have to publish, as the course is one of the compulsory majors we need to score to graduate with good pointer. 

It takes a lot more of effort than before because you have to stand a lot more on your own.

Now, my holidays are full of thought of it.

Nevertheless, its better than not having 'holidays' at all. That at least I have some more space to rearrange everything that messed.

Alhamdulillah, thankfully to Allah for everything. 

May Allah ease everything for us.

InsyaALLAH.

Strength

[Remembrance of those hard times]

Yours left, I mean ours left. He was long gone even by the times we laughed together.

Mines left too, of course, when he want to.

I did not tell, but I guess you saw in me.

You saw me weak..

During those times, there's no other strength I have but you, Mother.
I may feel alone somehow, but let all the good memories company me.
I may look weak sometimes, but inside I want to have those strengths like yours.
I might be not perfect, but all I want to do is the best for all.

Yes, somehow I have been falling and giving up.
But I will never forget to crawl back slowly, then walk and run again.

You do not tell but I know, I see it.
I have to be your strength too.

For you Mother, and I hope it can be for everyone too.
I LOVE YOU.